Another kind of Impatience

I am impatient for all the things we have discussed in the last 9 months; all those "after we get through the wedding" discussions. I've had to be very patient about certain things.

Like, moving out of this small cramped apartment that sufices, but I dislike (no HATE, I honestly hate). I can't wait to have a home, that we own. Somewhere we can have places to actually put things and live in, instead of stumbling around the furniture and ignoring the what seems like clutter piles, that really aren't we just don't have anywhere else to put stuff!


Like, taking a vacation. I mean an honest to God real vacation. Not a "we're taking a trip to attend this or that thing". (Besides the day I was violently ill and down for the count at the family reunion, we did enjoy it). I'm talking about going somewhere to relax and have fun, no alternative agendas.

Like, getting things in order so that when our "year after the wedding" is up, maybe we won't just start thinking about having children, but be ready to take that leap.

I want to start checking off that instinctual checklist that human beings have. Everyone has different feelings about what to accomplish in life, but I see it a certain way. For a long long long time humans have had a checklist that looks similiar to this regardless of the era:

Be born
Learn
Work
Find someone to love
have a home or place in the world (land, apt, house, tent, what-have-you based on the time of the world)
procreate and pass along your knowledge, feelings, life experiences
die

Granted, things may not always fall into that exact order for everyone, but you get the gist. I know it may sound crude or too simplistic, but it's the reality. And it worked for thousands of years in many forms of civilizations. It seems to be worth considering, that maybe things have been done this way for so long, because they DO work.

It's not something I can just ignore, my basic human instinct for all these things that make a life. At the same time I don't have a magic genie to whom I tell what I want and POOF it's done. I have to be that darned patient thing and work my way to these things :)